lastinlove23

 So I am working right now, it's been about two weeks since I have posted anything so I guess I'll do just that. Life's been alright as of late. Things with Charlie are okay but I am feeling really bad because I cheated on him at a party last week. I was at a party with a bunch of my friends and obviously there was alcohol there and I happened to have a little too much tequila. I don't usually drink tequila but it just sort of happened. So I'm just walking around this party, completely wasted, when suddenly someone grabs my hips and pulls me towards them. It was my best guy friend Ryan so I didn't really think anything of it at first. Suddenly, he starts talking about how we should just hook up and how no one would find out or anything and that people already think that we do. I said no quite a few times but then he kissed me and I couldn't resist anymore. We went outside so that the party goers inside couldn't see us or find us. We went into the neighbors shed and that's when things got a little crazy. He ripped my clothes off and just attacked me. I was sitting on the neighbors lawnmower as he was digging his face into my pussy. He stopped after a while and I gave him head for a little while but he stopped me and threw me on the lawnmower. All of a sudden he just threw himself into me and I have never been fucked so hard in my life. It was probably the best sex I have ever had. Right as we were finishing, and getting dressed, one of my friends came over with her boyfriend for the same purpose as us. She was a little caught off guard by seeing us the way we were so I am really frightened that Charlie will find out, but maybe it's for the best, who knows.

ugh, i don't want to work tomorrow. it seems like i'm just so busy all the time with everything. i guess that's a part of growing up. Charlie and I went out tonight. it was really romantic to be honest, he took me to my favorite restaraunt and even played me my favorite song on his guitar. sooo romantic. i just wish that was enough sometimes. i hate to sound so shallow about the situation but i just don't know what to do anymore. we got back to his place and we had incredible sex, probably the best i've had in months. i really hope things improve for us. based on advice here on livejournal i let him put it in my ass. it was definitly an experience, he's the only guy i would let do that. i don't know. i need to figure things out and stop being so promiscuous. well, that's all.  

Hey,
I am new to livejournal. I'm trying to think of different things to discuss on here but I can't seem to find anything. I have a boyfriend, Charlie and we're in love. We currently live together and are thinking of marrying in the fall. I have a cat named Caleb and he's the cutest cat in the world. I like to fuck. I have cheated on Charlie a few times and for that I feel horrible. Sometimes I just can't control myself. I hope to meet people on here. Thanks for reading.